The Greatest Loss

The Greatest Loss

 

Psalm 46:1King James Version (KJV)

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”

 

        My eyes have been open to just how fast God can move.  Mysteriously is how he works, but he knows the plan he has in store for us.  He wants to prosper us, not to harm us.  God wants to give us a hope; we can find hope and refuge in him.  He wants us to have a future that is of favor and not despair. God is for us and not against us. Even when we can’t see his hand in or over our life’s; God is working. Sometimes he silences us in order to give us a greater voice.

        Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day.  A year ago this day didn’t matter to me.  I wasn’t s aware or even had an idea that it exist.  Today for my daughter Natasha it has now became her voice, she has taken on the challenge to spread the word of this sad reality that many families have suffered.  She herself has suffered.  Until it has been your journey, your pain, it cannot be your voice.

        I am proud of her strength and her courage.  It is her therapy to say yes it hurts, yes I still cry, and yes I can still go on and fight for others who have no hope.  I stand in awe of her, I know it has been the greatest pain she has ever suffered or will suffer.  But through the help of God she can smile through her tears and be a support for countless others who will go through the same loss.  Gods plan perhaps, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28  I know my daughter loves God and we know that God too gave his child for us.  I’m sure it is not the gift she would have wanted to present to God, it was for her the greatest sacrifice, but because of her love for God, and her love for Makaylah, Makaylah’s life will not be lived in vain.  Her mother will speak for her and never forget her.

        What can we do to help; we can say God has not made a mistake.  His ways and plans for us are not always what we would have chosen.  In spite of the circumstance we trust God and stand in agreement he always knows best.  Natasha has a purpose in life and a strength she never knew she had if it had not been for her experience.  There are countless others who have and will experience this loss.  Where are you; do not be silent.  Someone needs to hear from you, someone needs to be encouraged by you.  There are hurting mothers and faith shaken fathers; who knows exactly every feeling that they have felt and continue to feel; the need to know that they are not along. 

        I’ve heard that the loss of child is the greatest loss of all.  Even in this loss, we serve a God who knows this loss first hand; he gave his son to die for the sins of the world.  God watched his son suffer.  To suffer is to gain, my sweet granddaughter may not be physically with us, but her ten day stay has changed our lives forever.  It has changed our voice!  October 15^th will now have a special meaning and we will remember Makaylah and all of the other Angels who lives were brief; but mattered.

        I applaud the strength of my daughter and all the other mothers who must face each day without their angel.  “God gives the toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.”  To every mother who has been in that war, God has a special medal for you.  The war scare is deep, it will heal, you will never forget and you are never along.

God bless each of you.

 

To my daughter Natasha in remembrance of our Angel Makaylah Mae Wells!